So here I am

almost 37 weeks pregnant! Wow! I think everytime I write I talk about how I can't believe how quickly the time has gone by, but seriously I can't believe it!

I have a feeling the next few weeks will probably drag on but I'm still so close to my due date that it's just like, whoa this is really happening!

Lately Jack and I have both really been wanting a puppy. I'm sure this is because we're both anxious for the baby to get here and so we're channeling that into this other thing that is easier to obtain and just be like- bam, here it is. I'm having to play the role of the logical one and it's getting harder and harder to say no whenever Jack asks to get one. But the baby will be here soon and I know once he comes, we'll both forget all about wanting a dog for at least a little while.

As my due date draws closer I'm more nervous about having a terrible delivery experience. I just have this feeling like I'm going to go way over my due date. My baby is too comfy where he's at or something hah. I have an appointment tomorrow and I'm hoping the doctor will say that I'm dilated but I really doubt it. I'm really thinking that I'll probably end up having to be induced.

I've had a lot of time to think about it and these are my biggest fears for the delivery day:

Passing out during labor

Having to have a c-section

Baby being +8 pounds

Having to be induced

Tearing really badly

Being in labor for an extremely long period of time

Going into labor when Jack isn't around and having to drive myself to the hospital- (I just think that would suck)

The list can go on and on but these are the things that worry me most. Not to mention the headache the bills will be after.

But all these things are unfortunately, beyond my control so all I can do is wait and see what happens.

The nursery is basically done which I'm excited about, there are a few finishing touches but I'm pleased with the layout and everything and relieved to have gotten it done.

Things are coming together and I'm actually really starting to fall in love with our house. It's funny how there were so many things about it that bothered me before, but now as we make slight changes here and there I can really see us raising a kid in it and having a nice little family. Of course when baby #2 comes (don't worry it won't be for awhile!) we'll have to definitely reevaluate our living situation if we haven't already by then.

That's all for now, I'll probably update after my doc appointment tomorrow.